I've had countless episodes of this sleep paralysis over the years but only recently discovered an 'explanation' for what had been happening to me.
What's been interesting me the most is,
Why do sufferers 'see' the same things?
From the many accounts by other sufferers that I’ve read many people 'see' the same apparitions.
Personally, my experiences tend to begin with an auditory hallucination, a buzzing sound similar to static, this in turn makes me feel like I wake up, but only my eyes can open, the rest of my body is paralysed. This is what initially gives me a feeling a fear, the fact that I can't move. But then I tend to look around the room and notice I’m not alone. I've never been physically attacked by these visions like some sufferers seem to be, but the fact they're there is what scares me. Usually there are several dark, looming creatures, monster like in appearance. They just tend to loom about me and stare, usually anyway.
One night I felt I awoke due to an unknown reason and saw a little boy in a traditional sailor boy outfit stood next to my bed, I blinked and he started to climb on top of me, it wasn't a fluid movement, more like sequenced snapshots, he wasn't really solid either, but see through. I at this point was terrified and didn't want to acknowledge what was happening so forced myself to sleep again. Several weeks later I felt I awoke unexplained, looked at the end of my bed and saw the same boy sitting in my chair, he raised his hand and waved, I grew scared and forced myself to sleep again.
The most recent sleep paralysis experienced happened the other month in my mum’s house. I'd just discovered the explanations behind sleep paralysis. I awoke due to the sound of something walking past my bed, as if something was shuffling in long robes. I wanted to open my eyes and wake up but I couldn't, the suddenly my eyes shot open, and I could see several black monster things at the end of the room and one sort of floating over me. I fought with the desire to wake up for what felt like a long time, I knew if I woke up and turned the television on the images would disappear. Finally I got control of my body, threw myself out of bed, my heart was beating fast I was concentrating purely on picking up the remote control, I was aware that these things were still there, right next to me, watching, I got back into bed and franticly battled with the buttons (I always push the wrong one) and finally television was on, and normality restored. The next morning the remote control was in bed with me, so I had definitely got out of bed, I hadn't dreamt that part. As for everything else, I can't be incredibly sure.
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