[ssandra]

Ok, maybe i am over reacting a little bit.. but it is how I feel right now.

i have been able not to drink diet coke for a few months now, and I am feeling great normally.

Saturday I was home alone and was in the mood for movie night. So I got some diet coke and chips and had a great time... couldn´t really sleep very well afterwards, but was still ok.

yesterday however I had to get up early and drive 2 hours one way, and later 2 hours back. So, on the way back I decided to buy some diet coke, and drank a small bottle (0,5 l)

Later at home I had another glas of diet coke... (yes, this stuff is addictive to me.. even writing this I want to go out and get more!).

Now, today, I feel horrible! I feel disconnected, I feel as if I am locked inside my body. I am nervous, feel shaky... feel a need for my next fix. I have this vague notion in my head that if I just have another sip or glas of diet coke, I would feel better...

Of course I hardly slept last night, which doesn´t help... I just cannot seem to calm down. Meditation helps, for as long as I am meditating... but my entire body feels shaky...

Hopefully another night will fix things again between me and my body.

So... kind warning to everybody out there.... If you managed to kick the habit of diet coke.. don´t start again!!! Not even for one or 2 glasses!!