thanks for ur advice, will do my best, taking baby steps...
have had a big shock that's why i got out of the relationship.. he was arrested for abusing 2 boys we used to mind... am so mad that i couldn't see it.. i was with him 17 yrs..god help me.. and we nevr had kids of our own.. Plus we were both abused as kids and he KNOWSS the effects. He is going to court on 6 march for pleading direction (if he'll plead guilty or not). I am a witness of the prosecuiton as looking back i see that he had plenty of opps to do what I believe he did (becos basically I believe those boys, kids dont lie).. and what is most upsetting is he did have counselling for a couple of years about his abuse. I did too at the same time, and was in a survivors group too for a while.
And, am smoking again after giving it up for 8 yrs... not good i know.. and I am on antidepressants and valium (only 2mg when i need it ..)
I do believe in herbal medicine and talking therapy - am getting some counselling in next 2 wks.. and once I can get my head straight, i will want to come off the antideps...
I think all the stress has caused the depression etc.
I am a psychic medium but not working at the mo. Also trained in reflexology and want to study regressin therapy next. Have a lot of plans. dont think i'll ever trust a man again...
am finding this site incredible and inspirational..
jan
