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I'm scared. I don't want to live like this any longer, and I often just want to die. I can't even describe the feeling I get when walking alone through a "cool" part of town and seeing all these people out doing fun things and having a good time together.
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It seems like you've surrendered yourself to the socially conditioned perceptions that exist around us. You might be walking through a "cool" part of town, but in reality it's not really a "cool" part of town, you just believe it us. I sympathise with you - I think we all do - but let me tell you something - these "cool" parts of town, are populated by people who you don't want to be. They wear the same clothes, try and be like each other, don't care for originality and do whatever the concensus dictates them to do. They go to parties because that's what people do. They drink alcohol because that's what people do. They be loud and racous because that's what people do.
These people won't help you with your depression, or help you to find your purpose, or to find your higher consciousness. All they will serve as is a distraction - they will cover over the problems you face without actually ridding you of them.
Surround yourself with people who are intelligent, funny and individual. Think of an interest you have and join a club with like-minded people. Pretty soon you'll see that going to parties, drinking alcohol and being loud and racous aren't the only ways people have a good time - they aren't the only fun things people do. They're noticed because they're brash, loud and popular - but the reality of the situation is that they probably have just as many problems as you do, but drown them out with anything they can use to distract themselves.
List your interests and join a club focused on that particular interest. And also kudos for seeing a psychologist - that's a very brave step to take. You might think you're weak at the moment but the truth is that you have the potential to solve all your problems - you just have to appreciate this. If you get time, read my article.
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I wish you best and remember - we've all been there before (yes that is hard to believe but trust me)