Hi Emaaki,
You sound really unhappy

But I think its just a phase. Try not to let it get on top off you. And yeah sounds easier than it is, but try going for a long walk. You may be depressed and feel like a 50 year old. But your body isnt. so do a bit off exercise and clear your head. I can honestley say that you wont feel like it forever

Hopefully youll look back and be able to laugh.
Rob,