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Originally Posted by Emaaki  ok this is very true n that's why I have been so depressed. It's alot because I have gone thru alot of emotional problems n tried to deal with them with no help. Emotionally I feel 100. Like I had major depression, but because I was so afraid of seeking help, I kept suppressing my emotions. It has made me feel like a machine rather than a human. I am soo unhappy. I desperately want to commit suicide. I really do. I feel like I have truly ruined my entire life because of choices I have made emotionally. I couldn't b more unhappy. I would honestly rather have cancer. N that's saying alot. I have treated myself like a robot for so long n in turn I have gotten used to treating myself like a robot. It hurt like hell but I got strong from it. But too emotionaly strong. It feels like I have put myself thru a lifetime of pain because I was so nasty to myself. I never let myself cry out for so long... |
Feeling like a 50 year old at 19 years of age, may not be so bad. I know plenty of 50 year olds and over who are happy with their lives. Some have gone through horrible traumas and continue to recover and integrate what they've learned into their lives. Others had it more easy. It's life in all of its manifestations. Feeling depressed and hopeless at any age really sucks. Though emotional blocks can be difficult to blast through, it's doable, and better for someone to realize that they are emotionally blocked at 19 than to suddenly realize at 50!
Life can get better.