I think since age 15 or so, I've become better and better at attracting potential relationship partners, despite the fact that I've only been curious about IM as of this year.
It's a little weird because I grew up in Utah kinda programmed to desire settling down and having a family. So now I'll be turning 24 in September and yet most the people I grew up with were married before age 20 and are all having their second kids, heh.
I used to really desire that, but I want to live quite a bit on my own before first. Creating a job I love as an artist is a more interesting draw.
I've also noticed that these forums often seem to have topics which bring up stuff pressing on my mind. So it's like there's this doubtful part of me that's bothering me, then I'll wander back to here and see that someone has created a topic expressing just the idea. And then I'll skim through the debates . . . The sides people take will usually be more extreme or exaggerated than what's going on in my mind. Usually that makes the more "reasonable" path shine through, or else it allows me to externalize any internal unease, if that makes sense? I mean, I can still ponder it, but stress leaves my space.