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darkw0rker · 08-17-2009, 07:03 AM

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. Cliche. Did not believe it. Always hated the whole idea that you are the world, that you are one with people and the universe.

I have always been mean to people. Never cared a damn thing about a human being in my entire life so far. Please, it's not because I'm a DARKWORKER. When I look back at that polarity thing it seems so childish and naive to me.

Anyways, my life has been a complete mess for the last 3 years. On the inside I've felt sick, bored, apathetic toward myself and others, especially other close people.

I don't know if I am noticing these things or if something inside me has changed miraculously. I notice the exact way I behave toward people influences the way I feel about myself and the way I see myself.

I've noticed when I am kind to people, I am actually being kind to myself. When I am being fake and unauthentic to them, I am also being fake to myself. By manipulating others, I am manipulating myself. By not being responsible for others, I am not being responsible for myself.

But again I don't know if it's true or not that we are one with others since this is a subjective experience. There might be people who act wrongly with people and feel good about themselves, of course if they are not deluding themselves.

The first place I noticed it was the idea of education. I am in college. I realized that I cannot fully learn my subject if I cannot teach it to others. In other words, teaching a subject allows a deeper learning of it. So I concluded it is only by educating people at a certain place in my life that I am able to educate myself more deeply.

And the same is true with educating the public. If my goal is to educate the public, how can I do it without educating myself completely?

I have also had social anxiety/social phobia for several years. But I realized that it is not people that I am feared of and anxious about, but only myself. I am afraid of certain aspects of myself being known to others. It's not social anxiety but self anxiety.

Please make comment on whether I am deluding myself once again or not because I have found me deluding me in my entire life.

08-17-2009, 07:03 AM	#1 (permalink)
darkw0rker Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Posts: 159	Doing unto others as I would do unto myself ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. Cliche. Did not believe it. Always hated the whole idea that you are the world, that you are one with people and the universe. I have always been mean to people. Never cared a damn thing about a human being in my entire life so far. Please, it's not because I'm a DARKWORKER. When I look back at that polarity thing it seems so childish and naive to me. Anyways, my life has been a complete mess for the last 3 years. On the inside I've felt sick, bored, apathetic toward myself and others, especially other close people. I don't know if I am noticing these things or if something inside me has changed miraculously. I notice the exact way I behave toward people influences the way I feel about myself and the way I see myself. I've noticed when I am kind to people, I am actually being kind to myself. When I am being fake and unauthentic to them, I am also being fake to myself. By manipulating others, I am manipulating myself. By not being responsible for others, I am not being responsible for myself. But again I don't know if it's true or not that we are one with others since this is a subjective experience. There might be people who act wrongly with people and feel good about themselves, of course if they are not deluding themselves. The first place I noticed it was the idea of education. I am in college. I realized that I cannot fully learn my subject if I cannot teach it to others. In other words, teaching a subject allows a deeper learning of it. So I concluded it is only by educating people at a certain place in my life that I am able to educate myself more deeply. And the same is true with educating the public. If my goal is to educate the public, how can I do it without educating myself completely? I have also had social anxiety/social phobia for several years. But I realized that it is not people that I am feared of and anxious about, but only myself. I am afraid of certain aspects of myself being known to others. It's not social anxiety but self anxiety. Please make comment on whether I am deluding myself once again or not because I have found me deluding me in my entire life.