[Foggy]

You haven't got any thoughts you're not in control of, it just seems that way, but you create them all.

Yes, I am capable of controlling them but at this point I feel it's such a habit that I create them subconsciously.

Originally Posted by Dreamline

I'm curious as to what you intend to gain from this way of being?

If I think about how I think, I'm pretty sure that I have more gaps in my thinking than scattered thoughts. In essense, I can have out-of-control thoughts but mostly if I am not focused on a task, my mind naturally defaults to a blank state or "wait" mode, like a computer that isn't being tasked. It's obviously still working on things on some level, but not bouncing all over, randomly. I'm not sure if that is a good or bad thing. But it's certainly not annoying, I can vouch.



Jennifer

My mind never returns to that blank stage... it's always running some degree of thought clutter through it. I am hoping to accomplish more efficiency because I am frustrated by how long it takes me too complete tasks.

Ummmm, I'd say disorganized thinking is a signpost that shows you the disorganization... it doesn't lead to being disorganized. The 'disorganized' is already there, the thoughts show it to you mentally.

(side note: if you think being disorganized is 'wrong', you've got something else to work on too )

Thank you for all your advice. I like your idea of having a countdown timer - sounds like something that would be worth a try. There is nothing inherently wrong with being disorganized but at this point in my life if I don't become more organized and more present I am going to drop out of school which is not something that I want.