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JacksEarth · 08-15-2009, 11:45 AM

Craig - thats sweet of you, thanks.
But I'll put my depression on hold until I can atleast pay my own bills.
I wouldn't mind a program that guarantees you get a minimal wage in 2weeks doing something you want. ~_~

Liveformx64 - don't put so much weight in that word "own"
I'm aware of what you say as well, been aware of it since I was a wee kid.
Very matter obsessed parents~
I simply use it to make conversations go smoother and not to confuse people or seem as if I'm forcing my beliefs on somebody else.
Doesn't mean I don't want it.

You say I'm smart enough, I believe I am. Yet I don't have a clue what to do.
What kind of value can I give? None, I'm just a bothersome freeloader.

Tobes - I know.. and I agree, but its hard to choose when you have none to choose from~ Still, my most pressing matter right now is finding an apartment and being able to pay for it.. Without working 8-17 in a factory prone to give me arthritis and thus make art and music impossible.
I could barely hold a pen after work in England.

Thanks for keeping up, thanks for your kind words. They will probably aid me at some point in my life..

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JacksEarth Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 82	Craig - thats sweet of you, thanks. But I'll put my depression on hold until I can atleast pay my own bills. I wouldn't mind a program that guarantees you get a minimal wage in 2weeks doing something you want. ~_~ Liveformx64 - don't put so much weight in that word "own" I'm aware of what you say as well, been aware of it since I was a wee kid. Very matter obsessed parents~ I simply use it to make conversations go smoother and not to confuse people or seem as if I'm forcing my beliefs on somebody else. Doesn't mean I don't want it. You say I'm smart enough, I believe I am. Yet I don't have a clue what to do. What kind of value can I give? None, I'm just a bothersome freeloader. Tobes - I know.. and I agree, but its hard to choose when you have none to choose from~ Still, my most pressing matter right now is finding an apartment and being able to pay for it.. Without working 8-17 in a factory prone to give me arthritis and thus make art and music impossible. I could barely hold a pen after work in England. Thanks for keeping up, thanks for your kind words. They will probably aid me at some point in my life..