[ahimel]

I need some help reconciling ethics.

Background:
Every year since I was born, I've gone on a trip with my family every winter. We go to the Glenwood Hot Springs for a 3-day relaxation - nothing to do but eat, swim, and sleep. It's an important tradition for my family, and an important time for spiritual rest and renewal for me.
This year, it looked like money was going to prevent me from going. I needed $220 to get up there, plus money for food, and I had only $130. This tore me up, and when I put out the intention to get the money, there was strong emotional intensity behind it. Although I tried not to force the method by which the money would come to me, I did think of the possibility of someone helping pay my way.
About a week later my godparents, who also go on this trip each winter, offered to match my $130. This would give me enough to pay for the trip and $40 for food for the weekend - a tight budget, but more than enough to go.

Dilemma
Now I feel like I somehow "forced" my godparents to give me money. That, through whatever mysterious mechanism causes the LOA to operate, I manipulated them. This feeling that I used the LOA irresponsibly makes me feel out-of-sync and unbalanced, like I can't live my life joyfully because I have a secret burden.

Did I use the LOA irresponsibly? In which case, how can you tell what's a responsible use and what's not?

Or is this an emotional, gut-level reaction from the part of me that's still scarcity-minded? Should I just get over it? How do I do that?

Thanks for your thoughts,

Amanda