Something like this happened to me as well.
My husband has hurt me, several times actually, in ways that really hurt me deep in my soul.
yet I forgave him and stayed with him, and he never made the same mistake.
One thing that comes to mind right away was one night I was having a panic attack, and he refused to wake up. He told me to get over myself and to grow up... This is not something you should say to somebody who cannot breath and feels like the walls are closing in on her and is turning to the only thing she thinks is stable in her life...
We were only dating for a few months when this happened.
I ran away from him, that night. Which was something that hurt him in his soul. That he woke up to find a note of me saying I was gone...
Yet we are together now for 5 years, married for 3. Happier then ever before.
This little story is just to show you that you can forgive. Everybody (in my opinion) is entitled to a second chance. I have told him very clearly that if this would happen again, I would walk, and be gone forever. Because I need to be able to trust in my life partner.
We were hurting for a while, slowly we grew back together. He has never done this thing again.
Other things have happened, things that hurt me as well, and as much.
He is only human, he makes mistakes. Things that for me are beyond important, can be insignificant for him. How does he know unless I tell him. Damage done, yes, but I am an adult and capable of forgiving and letting go. Not right away, but eventually.
Basically, everybody makes mistakes. Everybody deserves a second chance (in my opinion even for physical violence. It happened to me once, and never again. We are still happy together).
If it happens again.. if he didn't listen to you how much it hurt you the first time, it is time to walk. But why walk from something beautiful, for a simple mistake?
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