I agree with James - never mind Alpha and Beta, you need Gamma or Delta or even Epsilon here - by which I mean you sound as if you shouldn't actually be tied down in a relationship right now.
I'm guessing Anne will not turn out to be the woman you think if you meet.
Beta deserves someone fully in to her not someone who is with her because he doesn't want to hurt her - hurt is part of human experience and it is probably more hurtful in the long run to discover that your partner has stayed with you for the sake of something other than loving you - it makes a complete LIE of the past X amount of years. A great deal of hurt has been caused via the best of intentions by staying with someone 'for the sake of.... fill in your own blank'
It is a great thing to be in a relationship where you can be fully honest about your sexual past and nature of your sexuality and you haven't found that yet.
You also deserve to be in a more 'full' relationship where you can share many more aspects of your personality.
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