Thanks Andy, a lot of good advice there. On the friendship scene, I am making a lot of progress and really enjoy my time with them. Although the friendships are fairly new, they have quickly developed and we can talk about anything and everything.
The dating scene is another story entirely. And I understand exactly what you are saying about "stop it". It's just easier said than done
I've relaxed my attitude tremendously but still have a ways to go. The friendships are definitely more important to me but they can't provide everything. I'll keep working on it. Just FYI, being alone is sooo much better than living in the place where I was. Happy and occassionally lonely vs miserable and watching TV every night is definitely a step in the right direction. I just always want what I want when I want it. Need to learn a little patience
Take care!!