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Of course she says she loves you and of course you're having a hard time sticking to your decision. Breaking up sucks and this is your first girlfriend. It's very hard. Imagine trying to break an addiction to heroine. It's very difficult, I'm told. I've never had the problem. But I have had boyfriends and when you break up, it's like you go through physical withdrawals. It hurts.
I tried to break up with my high school sweetheart several times. We dated from age 14 to 22. Then we got married. We were divorced 11 months later. That's because I ignored the signs from the universe telling me it wasn't meant to be. If you ignore your true feelings long enough, the universe will force you into the most uncomfortable situation in order to make you do something differently.
So your options:
Stay where it's comfy and safe and not make any waves and have a harder time growing and evolving and risk something really big happening to you to get you moving in the right direction...
Or
Take a risk of finding out who you really are. You have to go through the chaos and confusion that comes with big life changes but when you look at yourself in the mirror and you like who you see, it's all worth it. You don't really like yourself right now because you aren't being true to what your spirit wants. TRUST YOURSELF!!! I can't say this enough. You know, already, everything you want. You just have to be willing to listen to the quiet voice inside you that loves you, the voice that IS you.
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