[Angela]

It's funny that you do jujitsu, which is all about energy and momentum, yes? and yet you put so much energy into avoiding real connection with people. Too bad! You ARE connected and related to people.

Maybe you're ready for a deeper sense of connection with people (which is not the same as "needing" people, as the person you quoted put it.) If you are ready, how about using your energy and momentum to actually create what you want with people. Yourself, 100%. Your jujitsu has instilled strength, discipline, and suppleness in you, right? Can you practice being with people (everybody), and use those assets to generate love or affinity? It would probably entail letting go of "people are useless" and "things could get messy" or whatever you're holding on to so tightly that you spring away into lonership.

The great thing is that generating love and affinity doesn't mean you have to say anything in particular or anything at all, any more than you do in your martial art. Do you see what I mean by generating, and would you be willing to try it? (you are already practicing doing it by posting here, by the way.)

(p.s., you also generated affinity the other day in the insecure girl post, in which you looked very boldly at yourself and said why you wanted to help people, even when they resisted your help. I meant to acknowledge you for that, cuz I was impressed by your sweetness and humor, even if you did stick your tongue out at me.)