Life is a big ****ing joke anyway, I can really understand why you want to commit suicide. I am really close too.. Don't fall for the 'talk-to-someone' trick.
It will only cost you a great fortune and won't do anything for you.
My life is ruined from drugs, it ****ED me up good. I can never enjoy life again, I only have memories of how things was before I got high all the time..
As for the consequences in the afterlife, well maybe you where put on this earth to only live a short period of time. Maybe you are 'done' on planet earth?
If you have so many problems, wouldent it be better to have it all black? Feel nothing, hear nothing, see nothing. I know I WOULD LOVE it that way.
Suicide is OK..