Im merely 13 and i know exactly what you are going through. I have many abilitys as well, but its so much harder for me because they do so much to me and im at such a young age. I am also doing my best to learn to control them, because i just cannot take what they do to me anymore. They are getting worse and worse and it is hurting me emotionally and physically. They have made me depressed and at random times my mood changes from that, i see things happen, know when they'll happen, see things that have happened, and many other different abilitys. On more then occasion i have premonitions and they are getting worse and worse, pain, random uncontrolable emotions and more. I too do not see these as a gift but i hope to be able to say one day soon that i do.