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How the hell do i know if it really works or not? a little bit from the fact that all sorts of people and authorities explaining and affirming that thats the way it is, plus a few personal successes i had, but really, the thing that pushes me to believe that it works is because it just feels right. Some things, you don't have to have it be proven to you. It's not about blind faith. It's just this intuitive knowing that, THIS IS IT. The world is just a mass of probabilities, its a probability that the scientists don't lie about their findings, its a probability that your beliefs are right/wrong. but some things, you just know, that its real. Its like watching a child smile and you just know that the smile is really genuine and there's something beautiful about it. You just sense and know its beautiful and real.

its a belief that it works, its also a belief that it doesn't work. Why should i choose to believe that it doesn't work? You're not living in delusion or illusion by believing it works, you're just choosing to live in a different illusion. Not believing that it works just lets you live in a different, less empowering, less optimistic, hopeful, joyful illusion.

One time i was imagining being with this perfect, beautiful girl. I don't really know what traits she should have to complement me perfectly, so i just get a feeling of what it would feel like if she was the perfect girl. It's not really about the specific things, its the feeling that really matters. I just like hmmm how would having this perfect girl feel like and just feel it. so ahem, one thing to take note of here is that you don't have to maintain the image or the thought or keep playing the scenario over and over again, you use thinking to get you into the feeling and then just keep feeling it, or if you want to, you can think, whatever you like,

i was sidetracking, the poin i wanted to make was that while imagining it, i had this doubt"what if it doesn't happen? what if it never happens?" First of all, SO WHAT if it doesn't happen? the happy, awesome, loving feeling i get is worth imagining alone. but then i realised that the "what if it doesn't happen?" doubt was simply just a different, more negative thought. at first it felt like a "real" concern, but i realised, its no "realer" than what i imagine, what i choose to think! basically, the doubt was just my mind involuntarily imagining that it did not happen! that sudden realisation made the doubt look so much less real, so much less significant. its just a thought, not "real" or "unreal", its just a frigging thought!

and then, theres no point in trying to fight the thought or stay away from it, thinking that you're going to create a reality like that if you keep thinking about it. i just love it, i just accept and even LOVE the doubt. i don't accept it as a "the truth', i just accept and love its presence, then i go back on focusing on whatever i was. sometimes i do it, sometimes i don't, whatever, the important thing is not to resist or try to fight what already happened.

its probably a lot easier for me that most people because i've had a lot of experience and practise with accepting and dealin with all these doubts(THE POWER OF NOW for 1 and a half years!) The doubts, negative thoughts and emotions felt a lot, a lot more real and were a lot more frequent in the past, and i gradually got better and better at dealing with them and they gradually felt less "real". but they were still pretty ****ing irritating and bothersome all the way until i had the sudden realisation that the doubts were just "negative thoughts" that had as equal a basis in reality as the "positive thoughts".

another factor that helped was probably my experience with lucid dreaming.in lucid dreaming, you are free of a lot of the physical limits in physical reality, you can fly, make people appear, make pretty girls appear to...talk to them, yep, no hankypanky.become invisible and all that.in a lucid dream, your thoughts create reality almost instantaneously. but you got to practise, sometimes, you can fly with full control over speed, direction lift-off, sometimes you keep trying but you can't really control the direction and speed which you fly very well. one time i flew about 0.5 metres off the ground at a speed of 0.5metres/second.

then you start wondering if reality is really no more than a more permanent, less fluid dream. in the dream, if you aren't lucid, you thik the dream is very real. In reality, if you don't think you are dreaming, you also think this reality is very real and unmalleable. when spiritual masters say to "awaken" from the dream of reality, they mean to realise and understand that reality is simply a different dream, but still a place where you can consciously manipulate and control physical reality. if you aren't lucid, you'll never be aware of your ability to create the reality, even though it is your consciousness that creates it. even if you are lucid, it'll take practise and experience for you to fully and skilfully create everything you want to experience. sometimes you can't fly in your lucid dream because part of you doesn't fully believe you can, but then there's enough belief for you to fly in a somewhat awkward manner. So yea, having the experience of lucid dreaming helped in making it easier to swallow the concept of consciousness creating reality.

yea, its really consciousness. thought is just a tool to help you create it. the real power behind creation is really consciousness, attention to emotions, thoughts and experiences you wish to have. consciousness is all that matters



as i write this, during some parts of the post, i imagined myself writing to an audience and realised there were a lot of loopholes that i experienced myself and didn't address. so i kinda felt like i ought to plug and explain them, but then, i didn't feel like doing that, it felt too much of a hassle, and then it might just turn people off or people might not even want to read it. at some parts i felt like i was wrtiin to myself, and as i wrote my ideas down they became clearer and more insightful than i thought they were. i kinda realised i should just write what i felt like, there may be loopholes, unanswered questions, you know, but the mind can't do everything perfectly. i should just let consciousness take over, do what is best for the situation, and just sort everything out nicely



anyway, one problem i encountered with trying to create reality was that i'd have this burning need for something and need it so much. like eyesight. there was one period i was obsessed with improving it, and really, what i did was to focus on the lack of any improvement. i kept affirming and intending, and kept trying to look for improvements and when they didn't come, i'd be disappointed. so my thoughts, emotions and all that were just focused on not having it and then creating it. that's a serious problem for most people, because they have something they feel like they really need and they keep trying to create in their reality, focus on the lack of it, end up frustratedand give up on the entire thing

what i did to get me pass this problem was that i only focused on having it. i stopped trying to look for results. just kinda trust it to come. sometimes i'd involuntarily look for results...and i just realise that it's a negative thought/emotion, love it, accept it, and very quickly,i stopped being so obsessed with having it and seeing results. its possible that things that you want can come instantly, but there are also times when it takes a little bit more time to come. how, when, you really don't know.

isn't that a convenient excuse for saying that your consciousness does create reality BUT it hasn't come yet? it isn't...but really, even if it is, it doesn't really matter. i feel so good and happy and positive, through positive thinking, that it doesn't really matter. its great if it really comes, but, hell, i already feel good so i don't really need it to make me feel good. if it comes, i'll feel better probably, but its not really necessary. so even if you don't believe any of this, you can just do it, just for the heck of it, just to play, just to feel good. and none of that ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ about "fake" happiness. happiness is an emotion, you feel it, its real.

its a practise, its a journey. it took some time and energy for me to finally get a very good idea of how to utilise the concept of consiousness creating reality, and i'll probably get even better in the future. i just learn that i don't have to do things perfectly, that i can trust myself, (why the hell should i trust anyone else?, i don;t have to get it right immediately, i don't have to even get it right.very important thing i learned is to ignore the "i believe it works, but not for me" belief that a lot of people have. i don't have to be comprehensive or perfect or convince anyone. people can just read it and maybe get interested, find out more, then work it out themselves

oh yea, one thing that works intantaneously for me is...like when im walking around..i just imagine that everyone is comfortable and likes me, i just know it, feel it. and then its so easy for me to look people in the eye, walk confidently, do some dance-rhythm walk."