[TheFlyingMan]

When I started PD a year ago, it became a passion to me. I had so many areas to develop. I awoke from my meaningless day to day existence and developed an identity, and goals. It was a burning passion, to achieve a level of competence in all those areas.

After a solid year of intense growth, practice, research, training, therapy, and all that...I've achieved a certain level of competence in all those areas. And I seem to have lost my passion. There are still higher mountains to climb in each area, but its no longer a passion.

To use an analogy...my head was underwater. I was drowning. I struggled to bring my head above water, to reach air. Now I have done it. Sure there are other things to do (I know I am far from a master in all these areas). Using the analogy, the next step is heading for land. But I'm just enjoying myself now, I just want to chill out and relax. Going for land...I don't need to swim there with the same intensity as when I was swimming for fresh air, now I'm just happy to sort of drift there while enjoying the sun. (i.e. I'm still growing in all those areas but no longer as passionate)

Does that make sense? I feel so lost now...I have no identity, no burning goals (goals yes, but like I said, just drifting towards it and enjoying the journey).

Please advice!!

(if anyone is curious...my old identity was a spiritual man, a philosopher, a nurturer, a healer, a teacher, and a protector. I've achieved competence - to my own satisfaction - in all those areas. I've spent years in martial arts, I'm about to spend a few weeks in handgun shooting. I've got very good control over my emotions, I lecture part time, I have learnt massage and basic first aid for physical nurturing and healing, I'm studying psychology for emotional healing and nurturing. My days are still filled, but like I said...I lost that intensity...I'm just drifting...)