[MidasGirl]

Hey OP, I can imagine how painful this must be for you. The fact is, people can do things that can seem so out of character for them we wonder if some alien hijacked them.

My humble opinion is that if you sit there trying to figure this out, you'll be wasting a lot of your much needed mental energy right now. Just change your focus from trying to analyze it, and focus on raising your baby. I honestly don't think you will come up with a satisfactory answer, no matter how much you try to think it. You can look at it and go, "isn't this baffling"? then do the best you can to refocus. Live your life. It's true that women get "stuck" with raising the child for the most part. But we knew that when we had the sex didn't we? If you didn't, then consider it a teachable moment to be more in charge of your decisions and conscious of anything you do. You can look at it as a blessing that he left your life. Or you can look at it like a catastrophe. Either way, this is what is going to set the foundation for the way you allow this event to shape yours and your child's life. The choice is in allowing this to make you a victim or a victor.

I wish you the best. It is possible to meet a guy who actually wants to be a co-partner in raising that child, who may even turn out to be a better dad than the child's father. Trust me when I tell you that.