Are you afraid of retribution or getting in trouble during this lifetime, too?
I ask because I was (and still am to some degree).
This had to do with turning my father into a kind of God and giving all my power away. Since facing my fear of my father, I have less fear of retribution from God and in general.
I posted on this here:
Retaining Personal Power in the Presence of Powerful People
Here:
Retaining Personal Power in the Presence of Powerful Individuals at A Singer’s Life
and here:
Personal Power and Subjective Reality at A Singer’s Life