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Hey, I happened to stumble upon someone's Internet diary! How interesting. |
Because I have a really bad habit of throwing away my diary, journal, and sketchbooks away after finishing the book. I thought maybe putting it here might save some important memory I have and when I'm 25 and look at this, and man, I really can't wait. I bet I'll feel like an idiot.
Anyway, (17/7/2009), that's right, I'm not an American. I used "$" sign just to simplify things.
I'm now living in a dorm. Campus. Pretty nice, though it's like 2 km walk to campus everyday! I got blisters for the first week. I'm looking forward to run a marathon in 2010
. They provide a free wifi connection down here but each student can only use it for 20 hours each month, oh well.
Nice room, great table. But they provide only a 170cm bed for a guy who is 180cm tall...
Last week, I made a stupid mistake again. I set goals, 6 month then 30 days, then daily. It help for around one week then I got "down" again. Yeah, I focus on career success, financial (again), ladies
, improving my skills, y'know those that are rooted in physicality.
Lately though, I only focus on my spiritual, purpose side of my life. trying to find thoughts that will bring goodness to my life.
Then thing happen. I got $4000 from a source that I thought I don't deserve anymore (about 2 days ago). Wow. I never felt how awesome financial freedom is until I about to lose it. It might be nothing compared to $20k, but hey, the universe is supporting me and that is awesome
. Goodbye, ramen noodles and hello apples, oranges, melons etc. I'm planning to try raw food diet, but I don't think I'm ready yet.
I think I want to try and set goals again. The way I see reality now, I can safely say that I am indeed is here to learn stuffs that this body can give to me. Maybe this is one of them. Ultimately, the "why" is the most important thing a human must answer.
I'm also intending a character to appear and help me, encourage me. It might take some practice since I'm still new at this intention stuffs.
It's durian season here and boy they sure looks delicious, I wonder why white people hate the smell. I think it have great delicious smell.
My plan now is to express myself maybe in the form of comics. I never done this before but what the heck, it looks kind of fun. Also, I'll be in some sort of internet seminar on 1/8/9. I want to make a website but I still kind of lack the education.
Things are looking better.
. Besides I get to watch monkeys swinging from trees to trees from my room on the sixth floor.
Things haven't changed much, but when I visualize my 25 year old self... it looks as if he is a different guy. But then again, if my 15 year old self look at me now, I don't think he'll believe I'm him.
oh. Can't edit my old old post. Well, maybe I'll leave this thread, make a new username and leave this thread.