Originally Posted by this is fun
I know this feeling. It seems like a bar brawl
You push your ego to go away, it pushes back, you give it a little slap on the face ...it slaps you back
But I think this is how you only perpetuate its existence, you give it more power, create more resistance...and when you have resistance you resist other thigs as well. Maybe a good idea would be to try and let your ego go through you...pretend you are transparent..when it reacts you just let that go through you...I've read that somewhere and it sounds like a good idea.
I don't know....
Let go and detach from the ego with "acceptance". The more you try and "force" it one way or another, you are in fact engaging the ego again! Allow it to be as it is for you, and then be "aware" of it ... and then start to disassociate away from the connections it makes. Be aware of your pain body as well, because the ego and the pain body support each other ... as you find yourself allowing the ego, becoming self aware of it, you will be aware that there is no longer a "need" to "label" things, people, situations and so you will find less of a need to "justify" or "deny" a mental position on whether you are "correct", "incorrect", "victim" etc (for these are also just "mental conceptualisations"/"labels").
When you cease "judging" a mental projection, and see that your happiness/perfection or whatever you are seeking is already there around you at every moment, you will find your peace.