I think when we lack self esteem it festers. We think about it all the time and it shows in our demeanor, behavior, body language, etc.....
Every single person on the face of this earth has flaws and/or shortcomings. However, I've seen flawed people serve as magnets....attracting the type of attention and adoration they desire.
I honestly believe that you must learn to love yourself before you can expect others to. I'm a strong believer in a high power. God created you the way you are...providing you with value and beauty in ways you haven't explored yet.
There is a woman out there for you - she'll show up when you're ready for her. Focus on YOU for now. I've suffered self esteem issues for a time so I understand how you feel and what you are going through.
Hang in there.
Kim
Self Improvement and Motivation