Thanks appreciate all the comments regards to the marijuana for some reason I feel that when I smoke not only do I feel better but more motive to learn and expand my mind....It wasn't until I started smoking that I wanted to stop cheating but now its as if I am replacing one addiction for another. I recently took a summer course about 4 weeks long and would smoke everyday for about the first three weeks after I had gone to school the last week I did not want to smoke because I didnt want to be a pot head but the amount of work I did dramatically decreased. Its like when I get high I feel that I need to work harder so that I can be productive and get high again but take away the high and I have no reason to work. Im struggling with it because this is the first time I have seriously been involved with drugs and am learning new things about them and myself I know the journey of drugs is negative but I feel I am feeling all of their positive affects with no negative I fear what could happen if I cannot live without them.
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