Originally Posted by Angela
Powerful Waxie! YOU are creating all of this!
(I glimpsed your deletion, by the way, and my answer would be you are right, of course. I was joking -- teasing might be a better word. You know what they say, though: Nobody's ever REALLY just kidding! )
My deletions are usually a product of my not being able to fully put my thoughts into words.
I cannot accept the implication that words comprise the only true means of communication; they are so often totally inadequate. Some ideas can only be conveyed if a little work is done on the (illusory?
) receiving end.
Example: Throughout my late childhood into my teens, I tried to explain the worst of my since-mostly-resolved phobias, in vain. I would say, "You know the pictures you can see in your head? Well, sometimes mine disappear! I can't see my thoughts!!!" (At its worst, the experience would extend into a sense that my consciousness itself was about to "deactivate". Scary to the core!) I'd get blank looks and requests for clarification, or examples for comparison, but nobody ever seemed to get what I was saying!
It wasn't until my folks found a psychiatrist who seemed to know what I was talking about that I felt any relief. He even provided a term for it - "thought blocking". Even though I still wasn't totally convinced he knew what I meant, it was good to hear a formal medical term for what I was experiencing. Having an unknown become an apparent known makes a big difference.
Still, I'd bet even here I could find more than a few posters who'd draw a blank at just exactly what I mean by the description of my phobia, or why it would be so traumatic. But there are also those who would know exactly what I mean, NOT by some collection of words I cobbled together to approximate this experience, but because they
(We? The Great I?) have also had this experience, and can fill in the blanks - pardon the pun - for themselves.