Hmmm, "should" statements and bliss being equated to laying around or eating calorie dense food for pleasure.
I'd really like to lay around more and I REALLY want to eat pleasure foods every day. And above all I'd really like to feel a warm opiate buzz all the time ever since I took home an oxycodone script when I had a kidney stone.
But all these things will eventually cause the "should" to reverse itself becoming - "I shouldn't have done that". Shouldn't I should not do these things?
Do your diets actually fail to work or do you end up cheating too much?
What is making you so miserable while dieting? Sounds like a psychological food addiction type thing with the emotional pain you describe. I have that right now, I just tried to start a diet but found I need the stress reducing chemicals more than I thought right now.