Thanks people for the words of support, finding time to relax and meditate is difficult. My partner is very clingy as she so frighten with what she is going through and the amount of care she needing has just increased. She is the one heavily into new age way of thinking and always reading the books. The comments about guilt are correct. I wonder however if I am able to be strong enough or be allowed to have a close friend and lover? What if your intentions go against the bigger picture? If what you seek is not the best thing for you or others? All this sexual tension has been making me ill and I have been lashing out and poor emeralbaby has been on the end of some stormy chats over the years. She keeps saying she can’t be what I want even as a close friend! Is the happiness of one worth the pressure it places on others, when does needs become a want! |