 Hang in there
Dear Isis Kali,
I feel your pain...Strange how love can derail one from one's purpose and how, no matter how strong and collected we think we are, it has the power to hurt so much and to lead astray.
It is quite understandable, that you would feel unsettled in such circumstances. You have to unpack boxes of stuff in your head and heart!
And with being back with family, one can feel disoriented and infantilized, especially if you have to deal with emotional issues of your family on top of your own. Again, this is quite understandable.
The good news is that you have gotten out of such situations in the past, you are a resourceful, clever lady, independent, self-employed. You will figure out a way out of this situation, and find ways to enjoy your present situation, maybe by connecting on a different level with your family, and center your attention on yourself and pursuits instead of your boyfriend.
Unpack the boxes and take pleasure in decorating your room, make your space a haven of peace,burn incense, have a little desktop fountain, anything that can bring quietness to your heart and soul.
This is only a temporary situation and you will bounce back twice as high as you were before!  |