Speaking as someone fascinated by Satanism, there's no reason it has to preclude spirituality. You can't be a LaVeyan Satanist of course, but Satanism isn't his religion. Spiritual Satanism is simply the latest evolution of centuries old occult practice.
But it sounds like you want to avoid that. Fear, perhaps? Christian indoctrination? Guilt- it seems you feel really guilty about being so different, or should I say the prospect of being so different? If you're attempting to evolve you're alone anyways. The average person doesn't understand someone who's striving for more than safety and creature comforts. Other paths may not yield the same knee-jerk response you'd get if people found out you were a Satanist but the relationships you have with them aren't going to be any deeper.
A religion is part of your identity but it isn't your identity. That's another thing I see in your posts. It looks like you're not so concerned about spirituality so much as how you'll define yourself. Me, I'd say define yourself and then choose a religion if you feel so inclined. If you try to pick a religion now you're only going to force yourself into a predefined mold without discovering who you really are.
Of course, exploring (not committing to) religions can be useful for that purpose. But you can't figure it out with a list of pros and cons. This is a matter of the heart, not the mind. Forget what should or shouldn't feel right, what does feel right? Move in that direction. It'll serve you better than these lists will.
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