Thank you for those videos i think i defiantly needed to see them.
it reminded me and haven't been stopping at 10 seconds after i recognise i am thinking:
"i have left my work too long"
"Im not going to have it done by the deadline"
I think i really let my ego associate to much with pain as well.
I really need to say to myself its good that i recognise this. I have been reminded i have been aware of this procrastination pattern at least the 3 years. every time you tell yourself you will change it you focus more time on the fail and not the now. It is the time to be the person who is not only in control of this but of his future. You plan your uni organisation, you work through your second year perfectly on time at the best of your ability.
Also the stand up thing hit as a synch. I mentioned before i was interested. Iv been having a bit of back and forth with a few minor stand ups on twitter lately i mentioned my interest only 10 minutes ago and they sent some advice back my way. To see that video REALLY hit home.
I WILL DO THIS
I am in a better state now
I am going to grow allot between now and next June because that is my intention.
