The good news Jared is that you are in touch with your higher self. It is your higher-self that is speaking in this post: it is the part of you that wants to give-up; and it is your lower-self that continues to want to indulge in gratification.
So continue to have the dialogue with your higher-self. You want more of your higher-self - and less of your lower-self - to occupy your thoughts. Then, ultimately, the behaviours you don't want will discontinue naturally.
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