It's not neccesarily being faced with something bad, you never get punished for doing something on any density, but taking the easy way out isn't going to be that helpful to your higher self, and you will ultimately choose to what you will do next, most likely repeat this density (3rd) to learn how to love yourself and others more.
I hope you don't do anything you are thinking in this current state of mind, it's only a phase that you must overcome. You will always get guidance if you ask for it, I suggest simply contemplating on it.
I'd refer you to this link to look at map
it can really help you understand on what level you are, and set a goal for yourself. The only reason why these things come into your mind is being you allow them, it's much like a negative entity coming up to your physical body and taking over it, and you with your free will allows it too, because of your mind set.
You have to learn to say no to these emotions and evolve from it and take life as a lesson to be learned. You have to understand the emotions within yourself is what is cast out, like a holographic mirror in the universe. You love others and show care for them, but the problem I've noticed from reading is that you seem to not love yourself enough, this is the root of the problem, always go to the root, nothing is random or change, it happens for a reason.