You could try killing the "me" and it's storyline... even if just for a day.
"Die in life so you can live"
I've heard many people say, and myself included... that in hindsight they are glad the illusions of life didnt work out as that pushed them to wake up from it. It can be a blessing in that sense.
In my own experience, I've had addiction, personal disaster, depression, and ened up a really anxious person with little enjoyment. I attempted suicide a few times, and lived distructively as a kind of defiance against life. I then met someone and got married and had a daughter...then things went bad again. Divorce, anger, crazy exwife running around the world with my daughter etc...The problem then was that suicide wasnt an option.. I wouldn't wish that on my daughter, so I was kinda stuck.
A couple of years after that I found a loophole.. surrendering personal will, storyline, beliefs, etc.., and engaging in deep spiritual enquiry. It's like suicide in a way, you end your world.. but theres a lot of cool stuff that opens up. I'm still learning and still struggle at times, but it's starting to really change things for me. I'd recommend it. If you havnt got any ties, you could travel around, become a monk, or however the flow guides you, while you do it. Or start just by downloading some audiobooks and videos on it.
It might be worth trying out, even if you only give yourself a year.
edit: sorry, I have no idea about the consequences of suicide (apart from missing out on loads of stuff).
Last edited by Benjy; 06-22-2009 at 01:43 PM.