Originally Posted by The Animus
so were you or were you not organized before?
That's exactly my point.
If you were already tidy, then how can you get tidier? You are already being tidy!
Perhaps you weren't tidy (or not tidy enough) to begin with. You just thought you were... Or something you are aspiring to achieve requires you to be more tidy somehow. Or perhaps you were tidy in the 'physical' sense (making your bed, keeping your desk organized), but you had to 'tidy up' other aspects of your life? Non-physical aspects such as goals, thinking, etc..
This "watching your reflection in the pond" business is kinda weird to say the least.