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JacksEarth · 06-20-2009, 02:07 AM

Actually its my insecurity and belief that going on a trip just like that with no money or planning would most likely kill me in a very horrible way.

I've seen the movie and it's one of my favorites. The way Christopher Maccandles was portrayed in that film completely resonates with me, I feel like he's the only person I can relate to. Like if I knew him he'd be the only person to understand me.

Why am I on this earth? because this is just another step in the ladder towards higher consciousness? I believe when we die that our consciousness lives on as something else. That life here is a maturity trip through the universe.
And it saddens me to see how very immature many of us are, putting so much value on money,greed and power that you're willing to conduct man slaughter.. and many other things. It just feels wrong.

I'm experimenting with loa, but its really hard as they preach about always being happy and positive and your lifestyle doesnt really provide these things for you. So changing your lifestyle would be a good thing only that using loa for it wouldnt work cuz your not positive over 50% of the time.

ofc, coming here is a step towards getting there. (Curse all these steps!!)

Somethings I'd like to become..
Pro snowboarder (I've ridden a snowboard 3 times and Im broke..)
Musician (cant play, cant afford a guitar)
Painter (...do I need to tell you how ridiculous it sounds to the general public who in theory are the ones who should 'support' me? not to mention the extremely tough competition, more so than in most businesses.+ cant afford the tools I'd need for maximum performance)
Be part of some show group doing martial arts or poi or both. ( again with living expenses, getting a team etc. Learning the skill, money money money)
Bartender.. (Which im currently looking for as a kind of apprentice job.. do dishes during work hours and learn to bartend in the after hours. Sort of like the movie "Cocktail")
I'd also like to be a survivalist or whatever, to be able to live just fine in the wild so to speak. Get out of this money hungry society.

You know all these things that maybe 10% of those who try actually get somewhere, and they sick amount of cash you need for it..
Most pro's go pro at my age, started when they were in their teens.

06-20-2009, 02:07 AM	#30 (permalink)
JacksEarth Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 82	Actually its my insecurity and belief that going on a trip just like that with no money or planning would most likely kill me in a very horrible way. I've seen the movie and it's one of my favorites. The way Christopher Maccandles was portrayed in that film completely resonates with me, I feel like he's the only person I can relate to. Like if I knew him he'd be the only person to understand me. Why am I on this earth? because this is just another step in the ladder towards higher consciousness? I believe when we die that our consciousness lives on as something else. That life here is a maturity trip through the universe. And it saddens me to see how very immature many of us are, putting so much value on money,greed and power that you're willing to conduct man slaughter.. and many other things. It just feels wrong. I'm experimenting with loa, but its really hard as they preach about always being happy and positive and your lifestyle doesnt really provide these things for you. So changing your lifestyle would be a good thing only that using loa for it wouldnt work cuz your not positive over 50% of the time. ofc, coming here is a step towards getting there. (Curse all these steps!!) Somethings I'd like to become.. Pro snowboarder (I've ridden a snowboard 3 times and Im broke..) Musician (cant play, cant afford a guitar) Painter (...do I need to tell you how ridiculous it sounds to the general public who in theory are the ones who should 'support' me? not to mention the extremely tough competition, more so than in most businesses.+ cant afford the tools I'd need for maximum performance) Be part of some show group doing martial arts or poi or both. ( again with living expenses, getting a team etc. Learning the skill, money money money) Bartender.. (Which im currently looking for as a kind of apprentice job.. do dishes during work hours and learn to bartend in the after hours. Sort of like the movie "Cocktail") I'd also like to be a survivalist or whatever, to be able to live just fine in the wild so to speak. Get out of this money hungry society. You know all these things that maybe 10% of those who try actually get somewhere, and they sick amount of cash you need for it.. Most pro's go pro at my age, started when they were in their teens.