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JacksEarth · 06-17-2009, 02:18 PM

Heh, I feel like the OP here.
Well sortof..
Replace WoW with staring at the ceiling and checking my inbox 467times a day.

I hated where my life was going and I couldnt see any joy anywhere.
Like the OP I'm wondering if life on the other side of the fence is actually worth the effort.
Sure I see happy people, I read about them here on this forum as well.
But their stories and their lives just makes me feel worse.
I'm supposed to be happy and inspired that some lonely guy made a 360 and became the happiest guy alive.. I really should. But I'm not, "Oh great.. another guy found happiness good for him /Sarcasm"

When I look at people who are happy, I dont understand why they are happy. Their lives dont seem all that interesting to me.
And I cant figure out what is interesting to me. I dont like anything enough to make a career out of it, (maybe painting but meh.. thats a pretty big bet. doing the same thing day in and day out all by yourself for most of your life gets tiresome)

I dropped everything that I didnt like long ago, as suggested by 'themaster'

What I cant figure out is where to go from here..
It's just so empty, nothing but me myself and I.. (you become very selfish when you have nothing else too..)

What do I want? I dunno! Nothing interests me!
I put blame on the sick society we live in.. I dont enjoy any of it.
But I have to be realistic, I live in this world whether I like it or not and I have to figure out something to make it less painful.

All I have are my fantasies.

Sorry for the peptalk.. I'm great at this stuff!

I usually get great advice from you people and many others, they make me feel motivated and full of energy. So I use that to write down some plans.. usually not much but atleast something. The day ends and I go to bed, the next day I wake up feeling like **** again, looking at my goals and think "..pff whatever" I logon to read all the great advice I got and same thing again "..whatever" Then I go lie in my bed wondering why the hell I cant stay motivated for more than 5minutes.
I honestly dont know what to do.
Exercising hasn't helped, though I still do it in hopes of getting a healthier body.
Eating right hasn't helped either, still do it for the same reason.

The most common thought I have is a loud scream. My second most common thought is related to IM where I picture myself living a great life.

06-17-2009, 02:18 PM	#16 (permalink)
JacksEarth Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 82	Heh, I feel like the OP here. Well sortof.. Replace WoW with staring at the ceiling and checking my inbox 467times a day. I hated where my life was going and I couldnt see any joy anywhere. Like the OP I'm wondering if life on the other side of the fence is actually worth the effort. Sure I see happy people, I read about them here on this forum as well. But their stories and their lives just makes me feel worse. I'm supposed to be happy and inspired that some lonely guy made a 360 and became the happiest guy alive.. I really should. But I'm not, "Oh great.. another guy found happiness good for him /Sarcasm" When I look at people who are happy, I dont understand why they are happy. Their lives dont seem all that interesting to me. And I cant figure out what is interesting to me. I dont like anything enough to make a career out of it, (maybe painting but meh.. thats a pretty big bet. doing the same thing day in and day out all by yourself for most of your life gets tiresome) I dropped everything that I didnt like long ago, as suggested by 'themaster' What I cant figure out is where to go from here.. It's just so empty, nothing but me myself and I.. (you become very selfish when you have nothing else too..) What do I want? I dunno! Nothing interests me! I put blame on the sick society we live in.. I dont enjoy any of it. But I have to be realistic, I live in this world whether I like it or not and I have to figure out something to make it less painful. All I have are my fantasies. Sorry for the peptalk.. I'm great at this stuff! I usually get great advice from you people and many others, they make me feel motivated and full of energy. So I use that to write down some plans.. usually not much but atleast something. The day ends and I go to bed, the next day I wake up feeling like **** again, looking at my goals and think "..pff whatever" I logon to read all the great advice I got and same thing again "..whatever" Then I go lie in my bed wondering why the hell I cant stay motivated for more than 5minutes. I honestly dont know what to do. Exercising hasn't helped, though I still do it in hopes of getting a healthier body. Eating right hasn't helped either, still do it for the same reason. The most common thought I have is a loud scream. My second most common thought is related to IM where I picture myself living a great life. Last edited by JacksEarth; 06-17-2009 at 02:30 PM.