Hi,
I understand what you are going thru, as I am going to a similar state.
I have decided that I am the one in control, not the situation or any excuse or even my unconsiousness (I get these great ideas about doing stuff and than I stay seated on my ass watching tv or reading (which would by my WoW)).
I have a new mantra which I say at any possible moment and repeat while falling asleep:
"I am in control. I am in control of my actions, feelings and life. I am in control".
Hopefully this will help. Because this way I will not let my other, lazy, scared, cowardly self be in control, but I will live a consious life with consious choices, not just following orders and going about my day...
Maybe this post helps you. I hope so, because I know it sucks to feel like this.
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