Well, regarding World of Warcraft: The reason I like it so much is the fact that it is an incredibly cheap form of entertainment at $14.99 a month. This is important since I live in poverty. It also keeps me from drinking. If I didn't have this game I'd probably be a hardcore alcoholic. It's easier for me to meet people on the game as well because superficial things like your appearance, how much money you have and what you do for a living don't matter. If you're a decent person and are skilled and knowledgeable at the game, then it's easy to find friends and people will respect you. If you suck and are rude then most people will shun you. But I'll admit it's not as fulfilling as the real thing (real relationships).
When I described my situation, I wasn't stating beliefs. Those are all facts. I AM envious, lazy, bitter and poor. If I weren't those things I'd be more successful and I'd actually have friends and relationships. My life DOES suck. It's sad and lonely and a monument to wasted time and potential. It's been a waste of time. My reaction to it is normal.
I just don't want it to be this way anymore. I feel like I've sunk so far down that I'll never climb out of this hole in which I find myself. It's like I'm trapped in a web. I'm not proud of anything. I've spent 9 months stuck in the same routine. Wake up, hate my life, go to job that sucks, come home, watch TV and play WoW. Oh, and ignore thesis. I can't break out of this and I'm beginning to think that what's beyond this isn't even worth the effort. I don't think I'll ever be happy, enjoy life or like myself.
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