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Originally Posted by rubelin  I don't trust the universe anymore, I don't think I can have whatever life I create, I don't think that my intentions mean a thing... |
Then that is what you'll experience. You're free to choose a different reality when you're ready, but perhaps at this time it's important for you to experience and embrace this lack of trust and sense of powerlessness. It is in no way wrong or bad -- it is simply the reality you're choosing right now.
As Kahlil Gibran wrote in
The Prophet:
"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain."
In your case I wouldn't suggest getting a reading. I think you just need to know that you're not alone and that you're loved. We're all in this wonderful journey called life together, even as we individually experience the depths of sorrow and the heights of joy. It's all part of the beauty of being human.
The benefit of dark times is that they make you more light sensitive.