Keep asking the question. The answer will come to you. You'll find your purpose.
You have had no sucess in your life? Never? Can you think of a time you felt sucessful? Can you remember a time where something went right?
Now I ask these questions because I know it's easy to get caught up in a particular thought and forget about the rest of our life. I suspect you have been sucessful in some ways of your life. I'm guessing if you look, you could find some examples for yourself.
searching for the job is day to day harder n harder, and in the time of recession its not possible.
Please be very careful with your thinking in this regard. To be honest, I don't know a lot of things about the world and your particular situation. I do know that there are jobs to be found in a recession. I also do know the power of beliefs in that if you hold tightly to this notion that a job can not be found in the recession then you will be blind to notice the jobs that can be found during the recession.