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Originally Posted by Zerox  ..when absolutely -nothing- works.
Things you do daily, just doesnt work. You're anxious and need to do something, but it just doesnt work.
You try to play a game, you fail miserably.
You try to watch a movie, you cant focus and thus ruin the experience.
You try to work, make mistakes, gets headaches and everything just sucks.
Yet you have this strong feeling of having to do something.
But it doesnt work.
Im on my second day now and its really frustrating 
I guess it could be described as a serious lack of energy. |
Hi Zerox,
I know how you feel.
I feel like that too, sometimes.
For me,
sometimes the simple answer is just to rest. When I feel like you described, I intuitively have some idea of what to do, and I end up doing it if I just let myself (note: often what I end up doing doesn't meet my mind's criteria of "productive," but in reality--the place where I have a body that has feelings, emotions, levels of energy that can be depleted--it's plenty productive. If the mind had it's way, I'd go non-stop and never sleep; luckily my body kicks in and knocks me out into a deep slumber before that happens
). If I hang around in my head all day, completely obsessed with and stuck in thinking, telling myself I "should" be doing this or I "need" to be doing that, I end up trying to do those things, but not making any progress... at least, not the progress I want (or the progress I tell myself I
need to be making). I
do make lots of progress on becoming more frustrated and feeling even worse, so at least that's something.
When I get stuck in this pattern,
I have to remember that I'm more than just a walking mind; I have a body, too.
Ok, my brain is part of my body, but putting too much attention on thinking can create an unbalance, or just ware me out. Usually it's at times like these that I need to slow down, chill out for a bit, and regenerate my energy. Even (gasp!) put some attention into my body (i.e. how I feel; how nice it feels to be in the moment; what my hands feel like; etc. Generally, become more aware of the present and the things within it--including my body). Sometimes I just need to quiet the mental noise I keep creating so I can actually
hear--feel--my intuition (which may arise internall, or externally; these days, I don't really see as much of a divide between my internal reality and my external reality... people, every day events, and experiences often convey useful insights. In other words, I "listen" for guidance--things that create
shifts in my state and my thinking--both within and without).
At the core--at least, when this happens to me--I find times like this are caused by an imbalance between
doing and
being. But beyond that, usually I'm stuck on a treadmill of
doing because
something's bothering me. Simply put, I don't feel good, and so I'm seeking something in external reality to make me feel better. Nothing ever does manage to fill that void for me, though, mostly because there's no void in the first place.
I don't believe anybody is ever "broken," and so when you see yourself as broken and try to look for a solution to that, it's no surprise that nothing works. You don't need to fix what isn't broken. Although sometimes I need to remember that I'm not broken, or connect with that part of myself that I'm sort of avoiding in my search for a solution to how I feel about something.
More recently when I don't feel good I just have to realise that,
"oh, right, my focus determines how I feel," and then in a minor light bulb moment, I reclaim my power again and realise that
"oh, that's right... I can stop thinking these disempowering thoughts and shift my focus to something more empowering."
If you feel you have a lack of energy, perhaps take a few days off to rest. I know, like me, you probably have all these thing you need ("need") to do, but I'm sure you can find a day or two--at the very least, a few hours; an hour; 30 minutes?--to just let yourself do whatever you end up doing when you stop trying to complete all your projects--including the project of "trying to feel better." (A project that can become quite the drain. Best to work on more interesting projects--even if that project is "sleep" or "rest" or "do something mindless while my batteries recharge.")
So this post of mine doesn't really have a specific solution for you, mostly because when I feel similarly to how you're feeling, a solution isn't what I need.
The more I see a need for a solution, the more I perpetuate the belief that there's something wrong--that there's something I need ("need") to do (thus creating that reality... although I'm free to think different thoughts--or stop thinking altogether for a moment and just chill out--and create something--perhaps a moment, or a series of moments-that feel(s) better. Frames of minds--perspectives--manifest quite instantly).
Sometimes not doing anything is quite an effective strategy that yields great results (this is definitely the case in some 2D fighting games I know of. And in my experience, what works in and what we learn in games has an uncanny applicability to life). And with that, I'll leave you with these two great articles if you'd like some further reading:
Those articles were really helpful to me a few months ago when I was feeling quite bad and grasping for something--anything--to feel better again. My hat goes off to Slade, the author of those articles, since he not only writes damn well, but has lived what he writes about and manages to convey the lessons and insights he's gleamed from his experiences without standing above you--rather, he stands
with you; beside you.
One final note: sometimes when I feel bad I tell myself that I need ("need") to be feeling 100% better.
Often, from a place of feeling bad, feeling 50% better is all I can muster. Interestingly, when I accept that, often I make the jump to feeling 100% again because in accepting that "okay, maybe I don't feel 100%; maybe it's a bit challenging to feel 100% right now" I drop the story of
"I feel bad" or
"I need to feel better" and my attention goes away from my mind and into the present where I usually find myself feeling fine, despite what my repetitive patterns of thought would have me believe.
I can justify a negative thought or pattern of thinking all I like--it might even be related to something true; something that actually happened--but the more I perpetuate that thought and choose to focus in a way that disempowers me, the more I perpetuate the bad feelings. As my
KISS oracle card says:
Quote:
Pay Attention To Your Thoughts
Thoughts have creative energy. Be sure you are thinking about what you "do" want, and not what you "don't" want. Should you notice your thoughts have wondered to a fear based position, just "cancel - clear - delete" them, and redirect your focus.
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It's that easy.