Welcome rubelin -
I second Erin's statement that if you feel called to get a reading then it's probably a good idea. Coming here and asking the question indicates a certain level of readiness.
In my experience, regardless of your current state, if there is a great yearning within you that can no longer be silenced to know the truth your guides have to share with you, the reading will be of value.
I don't know the particulars of your despair but can tell you that I was at the lowest point of my life emotionally and spiritually when I had my first reading (with a psychic other than Erin
). And, to be honest, I was a HUGE sceptic (lowering my vibration even more). However, I managed to suspend my "beliefs" for the session. Allowed myself to listen with my heart and soul rather than mind, with a spirit that was open to and accepting of the messages. What I was told resonated deeply as truth. It was somewhat painful because I had been denying like crazy, but mostly I had a massive feeling of relief to have verification that my intuion, which I had been supressing as untrue and unacceptable, was in fact accurate.
Blessings to you.