@Angela: Ouch, that hurts to read. Thank you for that. You are especially right about repeating the pattern. I feel that that's exactly what would happen if just went on withouth learning the lesson that's in here for me.
@ticktockclok: What's in the 7 Habits that you think I need?
@ReallyGoodIdeas: You're right about the projection thing. There is a LOT I can't accept about myself. There is a LOT I can't accept about the world. And I think that's the real underlying cause here. To me the entire world is a fixer-upper and I don't know if that's even a bad way to see it.
I'll let you talk to the part of me that believes it's a good thing to see this entire world as a fixer-upper:
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Originally Posted by The aspect of me that is causing this upset I really hate accepting anything of which I dont believe it's truly the best way of being. We can accept everything in this world, but what is that going to change. If I accept the fact that billions of people are slaving away day after day to support the life-styles of the upper-class, what will I achieve with that? If I accept that we are chasing an ever-more expensive dream of material happiness while millions are suffering without having their most basic needs met, what am I going to accomplish with that? If I accept that almost everyone in this society is brought up severely repressesing their sexuality and identity, what do I achieve with that?
I think we should STOP accepting all that s h i t. I think we should stop being so damn complacent and just going about our lives 'accepting' all kinds of garbage we don't stand for. I want to rebel against all the evil that lives out there, just flowing through the world from person to person while hardly ever being given a hard time at all.
You know, what the hell is wrong with giving people the idea that they're not good enough yet? I've been in situation where people thought I wasn't good enough yet and I've found that that propelled me through life at far greater speeds. In looking at my relationship I even think that it's not the problem that I don't feel my partner is not good enough for me, it would even more be the fact that I put my energy into fixing it. Perhaps that's the problem even more.
I want to get other people to invest in getting their life to a higher level. I am frustrated by the degree of complacency everybody in this world has about this s h i t. |
Reading this I think that the problem I see in myself is that I believe I accept too much s h i t from other people. I want to stop accepting the things I believe to be bad in other people. I want to stand up for what I believe is right and not simply let these harmful tendencies in others persist unhindered, especially when I'm working so damn hard on fixing them for myself.
Perhaps my problem is that I feel that I accept far too much s h i t from other people, from the world.