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Originally Posted by The_One_Free_Man  I generally don't like telling my age because people can make preconceived ideas about who I am..I'm 16. I can't access help really because I'm in the middle of nowhere in terms of location. Can't drive yet, and the parental units never seem to want to help me. They basically just say "get over it". |
Hun, If you think for one moment that your peers aren't looking around the room and feeling the exact same things that you are feeling, than you need to step back and look again. What you are going thru is a form of ego-centrism. That is the phase that all teens experience at some time and some experience it for longer than others...where you feel like wherever you go...everyone is looking at YOU..summing YOU up, judging You and honestly... if it is your peers, they are all obsessing over the same things...what you and everyone else is maybe thinking about them.
Just remember that when you feel like you are the center of negative attention because of lack of self-worth, your peers are too busy worrying about what you think of them, to really spend any time considering what they think of your looks or level of attractiveness.
We are all merely victims of our own self worth.
I'll tell ya something else. I used to be quite the looker in my younger years. I had no clue. It isn't until I look back at pictures that I realize how pretty I really was. Too bad that ego-centrism kept me depressed, with a low self esteem, and now that I am older, fatter and less attractive, I am happy to accept myself for ME, and feel more spiritually in tune with the world around me. My looks ultimately distracted me and the rest of the world. I had no ambition because no matter how good I looked, it wasn't good enough and being beautiful physically really opens you up to they type of people that are only physically attracted to you and it leads to some major heartbreak.
Right now, it seems like the end of the world, but one day you will see that the people that come into your life and stay because of the person that you are, aren't going to be the type of shallow people that you would be better off avoiding anyway.
If you had every little thing about your appearance, the way that YOU think you want it to be...you still wouldn't be satisfied.
I hope that you find yourself...deep in your heart...and not just in the mirror..and find someone that you can love and be proud to be.
Blessings,
Rebecca
Get over the person you see in the mirror and dig a little deeper and know and love that person that you are in your heart. THAT is who you are. THAT is what people really see.
I wish you the best.
Blessings,
Rebecca