i find this all at once interesting and confusing...this dance with alcohol that so many of us do...it can be so intoxicating in more than just the literal way....it is a social medium...it can relax you, it can put you to sleep...after work it can give you that ahhhhh that you need....if you are sad or depressed it can make you a little numb to the pain that you feel...it can make you a little less uptight and take the edge off, but not too much if taken in moderation....a little bit of red wine each day can even be healthy for you...wine can sometimes enhance a meal...maybe it is something that is almost cultural with you...it is a little bit of all of the above with me...plus being of italian and french heritage...a love affair indeed...sometimes wondering if there was a chance one could border on an abuser of alcohol...what makes one actually an alcoholic...if i enjoy a glass or two of wine almost ever day...if i look forward to it...could i be?...there i days i would like to get blitzed but i don't for functional reasons for health reasons, there is always that check...years ago there were times when i intentioanally got very drunk..i am a small woman...when i was really down...and almost hope something would accidently happen..but i am also blessed with a fast metabolislism...so it was not my time...and i would never do that again...do not feel the need to...now to be honest...i like the taste of wine, a lot...and pretty much only drink it with a meal....but other times...but my health, my life always holds me back from really letting go and getting wasted...not that some evenings i don't have a tad more than i should...but still it is a strange relationship....we are all vulnerable. we all have that potential given the right set of circumstances and a lapse in our checks and balances.....
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