If you believe in I-M, given that he was drunk, maybe it's the universe's way of sending a message to you about him and about what you're looking for in general.
Most of your posts are taking a negative tone. Like, the only slightly positive thing was saying:
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...but then I created this, right? Dang! I swear I remained positive! Surely it all can't be this hard! *sigh*
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Which isn't really positive because it's expressing exasperation/frustration/disappointment . . .
Saying things like,
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-I don't like the fact he ________
-The onus should be on him
-this is not ME sabotaging anything. This in my opinion is HIM
-I'm so sick and tired of . . .
-I see it around me constantly . . . [huge rant]
-this comes after being dicked around by so many 'boys' and seeing . . .
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doesn't help . . .
I'm not fully sure of my belief in LOA, but I do know that you're expressing a pretty negative perspective right now and that will be reflected in your view of reality [Regardless of whether you're *creating* it or just mentally *filtering* it to be that way]. I've always had a pretty good view of people in general and have met tons of great men and women as a result.
You have to give someone room to impress you, rather than have these harsh views and try to force him to prove them wrong. If I were in your place, I would wonder if maybe whatever forces are at work (god/oneness/a highly perceptive social subconscious/whatever) were trying to tell you that he really *isn't* the one you're looking for . . . Not to mean that you're not compatible or that you can't have a great relationship-- But rather that you're looking for someone to break through all this stuff you've built up when that's YOUR baggage. You shouldn't look for a peaceful resolution to all that in another person, you should look for that in yourself.
From personal experience, when you do start focusing on handling all your needs, suddenly people warm up to you a lot more. Seriously, I've worked on taking more responsibility in my life in these past few months and suddenly this man who's been in my life for awhile who's had kind of a wandering personality is a lot more stable and secure. There wasn't really a problem before given that I'm fairly laid back- but things have gone from "great" to "AMAZING." It's a lot easier for people to be comfortable with themselves and their feelings (and the expression of those things) if they're not feeling pressure to fix/manage your life on top of their own, you know?
I would assume the best of this guy (maybe he is really extraordinary and in fact so in touch with the universe that he's drunkenly channeling important messages for you, lol) . . . and act accordingly. If it's no good, it will become apparent and you'll learn from it. Not only that, you can have the added confidence of knowing you remained strong and beautiful regardless of the nature of the connection.
Of course, if he is something special, you'll be in the best place to enjoy it.