The problem is, it's not something where I can just ASK her about...I KNOW enough about her (her favourite things, what she wants to do, her passions, etc.)
It's on a deeper level that I feel we're no connecting. It's almost like if she dissapeared tommorow, the pain will only be on the surface- there will be no deeper...(for a lack of a better word) spiritual pain.
"One more thing: are you taking 100% responsibility for the relationship? Are you looking at yourself to see what you might be doing (or thinking or feeling) that might be creating for her a feeling of being unsafe or pressured? Do you have some unexplored trust issues yourself? It might be valuable for you both to see if and how you're mirroring each other." -Angela
That's one freakin' great point there angela. I don't think I'm pressuring her or making her feel unsafe in any way, but I think its more to do with fear of getting hurt- both of us. For a long time, I kept myself closed, and waited for the other person (my GF) to open up first. But that was a while back, and I've since taken the initiative and opened up first- and she has mirrored this as well, and has subsequently opened up herself more.
I think this is as much my "fault" as it is hers. Maybe you guys are right- I'm not opening MYSELF enough, and I'm not representing myself truly 100% either...but it all goes back down to my fear of getting hurt. How the hell do you "cure" something like that?!?!
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