I know how you feel: I've been in these situations before.
You are in a place where you can choose to learn several lessons:
1- Learn to enjoy solitude. You are in a position of being able to shut off other people's ramblings around you, how lucky! It may be a good time to reflect on what you bring to your life yourself. What is left of your persona once you cut out the cocktail party vibe? Have you cultivated your inner world enough to entertain and satisfy yourself (if not, how do you plan to satisfy others)? Are there things you want to do but always felt held back by your social life? Several of my non-Japanese speaking friends have used their time in Japan to pick up on their writing or art.
2- Learn to relate with people on another level: without language. So much can happen with a warm smile, a helping hand, a nod, a shared habit like sitting on the same bench for lunch... We tend to forget how much we can communicate beyong the blabbering. It's time for you to rediscover this.
3- Learn to expand your social horizons. You said you didn't appreciate the partying expat' crown, fair enough. But who haven't you tried to relate to? Maybe other migrants, or children, or elderly people. Meaningful connexions don't always come from those we expect.
4- Learn another language. This is a good time to change your views on learning. It seems that your learning spark has been crushed by your schooling... but can you really see yourself go through life without ever learning something new? There are so many more ways to do that than by sitting in a classroom with a textbooK. You can find an overwhelming amount of resources and good tips out there, ut just to name a few: read everything you can (billboards, your lunch wrapping, short newspaper articles), listen to everything you can (the radio, movies, your neighbor's conversation) and speak as much as you can (make a habit of sharing small talk with your baker, find a language partner who wants to learn English)
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